Hope - a song by NF (worth listening to)

I’ve been on a journey. 

This is a long and winding road, full of bumps and danger and pain… full of challenges and hardship and did I mention the pain?  

I’ve been challenged in life recently and have had enough of trying to do things the wrong way. The way my mother taught me, the way of damage and hurt and selfish and pain and pushing everyone away. I’ve hid behind the ‘honourable veneer’ of independence. It’s been my shield and my armour, keeping both the terrible pain and the amazing goodness of people away.  Arms length. Exactly how I like it.  It’s easier this way..

Until it isn’t.  Until my child is hurt by my armour. Until my relationships suffer on the steely distance the armour provides me.  

Now I am taking that armour off. It’s been wounding me and my loved ones as well as insulating me from good and bad experiences. 

I needed to find a better way.  

I’ve found it… but fuckin hell, is it a difficult path.  

This song offers me hope and hopefully a glimpse into my world for any of you patient readers.  

  I highly recommend listening to this song. 

I highly recommend reading these lyrics. 

I highly recommend seeking help where you can in a healthy environment with someone who can walk you through your pain, however that looks for you.  I’m a listening ear as much as I can be should you need it. 

HOPE - NF

Thirty years of running, thirty years of searching
Thirty years of hurting, thirty years of pain
Thirty years of fearful, thirty years of anger
Thirty years of empty, thirty years of shame
Thirty years of broken, thirty years of anguish
Thirty years of hopeless, thirty years of (hey)
Thirty years of never, thirty years of maybe
Thirty years of later, thirty years of fake
Thirty years of hollow, thirty years of sorrow
Thirty years of darkness, thirty years of (Nate)
Thirty years of baggage, thirty years of sadness
Thirty years of stagnant, thirty years of chains
Thirty years of anxious, thirty years of suffering
Thirty years of torment, thirty years of (wait)
Thirty years of bitter, thirty years of lonely
Thirty years of pushing everyone away
(You'll never evolve) I know I can change
(We are not enough) we are not the same
(You don't have the heart) you don't have the strength
(You don't have the will) you don't have the faith
(You'll never be loved, you'll never be safe
Might as well give up) not running away
(You don't have the guts) you're the one afraid
I'm the one in charge
I'm taking the (no)
I'm taking the
Reigns