Is it over yet?
I will gladly admit that I don't particularly enjoy this time of year. Commercialization, stressers, fabricated music and a drained out husk of what this season was originally intended to be.
I have a number of personal reasons why I despise this particular time of year. Some of you may know a few of them, some may know nothing at all, and that is fine too.
I won't get into the minutae of my life or crawl onto the therapist couch and whine and bitch about how hard life has been for me. Blah..blah diddy blah. All I can think of is Charlie Browns Teacher when I think of all of that...
There are people that I miss a great deal and wish I could see. Some of these people are aware of this, some are not. My childhood memories are no real comfort, growing up dirt poor as I did.
I don't know, this time of year seems to bring out the worst in folks, and on occasion you see 'the best' in them as well...although I can throw down a damn fine (and cynical) argument about how we should be treating one another this way all year round and not just for a couple weeks in Dec.
The history is not great for me, the missing of certain parties has and will continue to be a very heavy burden, and the bleak prospect of deaths shortly to come, does not alleviate my soreness inside.
It's a tough time of year for everyone, I'm led to believe. So in the "Spirit" of 'just hanging on by the skin of my teeth', I am rolling on, and proudly can say that the season is nearing its end, and I am almost ready to breathe a sigh of relief.
It has been better than most year thus far, and Im thankful. I am happy to see kindnesses from strangers to strangers, as that is the season I would like to partake in, and to see people come together for causes like the poor and children who have nothing for their own.
It helps, even a pre wrapped gift from a stranger, to make a hard time for a poor child, a bit bearable. I know...believe it.
I'd like to have Christmas in early March.... just invite everyone over for a gift exchange, nothing big, some food, friendship and a night to relax and enjoy each others company. Maybe this will be the year I start that particular tradition.
Speaking of traditions... a couple friends and I have started one a few years back and it seems to be the thing to do. Christmas Eve after family, friends, loved ones, midnight mass... we go to a sports bar and celebrate there. You would be shocked at how many young folks are hanging out at a sports bar on Christmas Eve. A lot of us seem to feel the same away about the season I suppose.
It seems jaded to hit up a bar on Christmas Eve, but it isnt. Its just a way for me and these folks to connect... just like midnight mass is a way to connect with a different group, and family, and friends, adn loved ones are all my connections... and for all of you snobs turning up your noses at me, or the Holier Than Thous (And I know yer out there reading this), I do believe Jesus started and continued most of his work in the bars and whore houses... and heck.. Im not even that hardcore.... I'm just throwing it out there.
I am ready to see 2011.
I have a number of personal reasons why I despise this particular time of year. Some of you may know a few of them, some may know nothing at all, and that is fine too.
I won't get into the minutae of my life or crawl onto the therapist couch and whine and bitch about how hard life has been for me. Blah..blah diddy blah. All I can think of is Charlie Browns Teacher when I think of all of that...
There are people that I miss a great deal and wish I could see. Some of these people are aware of this, some are not. My childhood memories are no real comfort, growing up dirt poor as I did.
I don't know, this time of year seems to bring out the worst in folks, and on occasion you see 'the best' in them as well...although I can throw down a damn fine (and cynical) argument about how we should be treating one another this way all year round and not just for a couple weeks in Dec.
The history is not great for me, the missing of certain parties has and will continue to be a very heavy burden, and the bleak prospect of deaths shortly to come, does not alleviate my soreness inside.
It's a tough time of year for everyone, I'm led to believe. So in the "Spirit" of 'just hanging on by the skin of my teeth', I am rolling on, and proudly can say that the season is nearing its end, and I am almost ready to breathe a sigh of relief.
It has been better than most year thus far, and Im thankful. I am happy to see kindnesses from strangers to strangers, as that is the season I would like to partake in, and to see people come together for causes like the poor and children who have nothing for their own.
It helps, even a pre wrapped gift from a stranger, to make a hard time for a poor child, a bit bearable. I know...believe it.
I'd like to have Christmas in early March.... just invite everyone over for a gift exchange, nothing big, some food, friendship and a night to relax and enjoy each others company. Maybe this will be the year I start that particular tradition.
Speaking of traditions... a couple friends and I have started one a few years back and it seems to be the thing to do. Christmas Eve after family, friends, loved ones, midnight mass... we go to a sports bar and celebrate there. You would be shocked at how many young folks are hanging out at a sports bar on Christmas Eve. A lot of us seem to feel the same away about the season I suppose.
It seems jaded to hit up a bar on Christmas Eve, but it isnt. Its just a way for me and these folks to connect... just like midnight mass is a way to connect with a different group, and family, and friends, adn loved ones are all my connections... and for all of you snobs turning up your noses at me, or the Holier Than Thous (And I know yer out there reading this), I do believe Jesus started and continued most of his work in the bars and whore houses... and heck.. Im not even that hardcore.... I'm just throwing it out there.
I am ready to see 2011.
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