A Bachelors Blog

I Think that this is possibly one of the nicest songs. Ever. My favorite is that last line. It always has, and I think it always will, resonate with me....    And for those of you who live in a cave, I'll transpose the last bit... "Standin on hill in the mountain of dreams, tellin myself it's not as hard, hard, hard as it seems......"   Who out there can't relate to that?   Enjoy.... I'm late for a very important meeting with my pillow!

Now that Christmas is almost behind us, we can look ahead to a new year.  I have come to realize over time, slowly and ponderously, that I have a great family.  It's extremely broken, it's haphazard, it's not terribly genetic, but it IS mine....   My sister and I are very close....almost twins in how we think, and always seem to be there for one another when times get tricky.  We stuck by each other growing up, when life got...difficult.    My older brother, although very different from me, is still important in my world and I'm glad he is around, for better or worse.   I have Half Sibs, all three of them I love separately and with a fierceness that cannot be underscored. Ok, I CAN underscore the text in the blog, but that's not the point.   Dad is far away, but I think of him often, My Adopt-a-mom is always nearby and Im thankful for the surrogate family I have with my closest friend and his family, who treat me as one of their own...  ...

  I will gladly admit that I don't particularly enjoy this time of year. Commercialization, stressers, fabricated music and a drained out husk of what this season was originally intended to be.   I have a number of personal reasons why I despise this particular time of year. Some of you may know a few of them, some may know nothing at all, and that is fine too.     I won't get into the minutae of my life or crawl onto the therapist couch and whine and bitch about how hard life has been for me. Blah..blah diddy blah.  All I can think of is Charlie Browns Teacher when I think of all of that...   There are people that I miss a great deal and wish I could see.  Some of these people are aware of this, some are not.  My childhood memories are no real comfort, growing up dirt poor as I did.     I don't know, this time of year seems to bring out the worst in folks, and on occasion you see 'the best' in them as well...although I can throw dow...

Ever get a song stuck in your head?  Sure you have, who hasn't, right? For some reason I have Rihanna totally in my brain. It's kind of a lame song..sex songs don't really do it for me...pardon the ironic pun, but the music always puts me in a mind of driving at night. Granted driving at night isn't my most favorite thing these days with all the idiot drunk drivers careening way too fast down the streets.... "Red light? Naww thats just an option to stop..."   Was with some friends, having food, chatting, good times, while watching some hockey, when all of a sudden I shouted "Oh NA NA"....into the lull in conversation.   My one friend J, from across the room quietly responded "Whats my name?"  I don't quite know why, but I laughed my ass off at that.   We also made fun of a movie called Easy A.  Emma Stone, pretty, young, an up and comer in Hollywood for sure...but there is a scene where she gets a card from a friend and spends the w...

...and yes, one step back.  Although I am not referring to Paula Abdul.... this time! Hah!   I really want this season to be over.  Too many bad seasons, not many good seasons.... the Karmic Balance is askew...or whatever.   A lot of things coming up,, mostly good things,and this next year offers some interesting changes.  Kind of looking forward to it all, kind of not.    In the end it's all in how you say the word... "Interesting" Usually means piqued curiosity and a generally positive outlook... "Innnnnnnteresting".... well.. I'm sure you can figure out how to translate that one.   For now, my quick 'reality check' is done, and it's almost time for bed..... as soon as I finish a few more levels of Plants VS Zombies.... BEST. POPCAP.  GAME. EVVVVVER.

This song has always made me feel better about things.  Sometimes you just need to know that eventually it will all get better, and there will always be moments when you need to be reminded of that reality.     It can be hard to see the forest for all the trees. I was given some material to read and listen to about meditation.  I find that with life gearing up and a stressful, challenging, and generally tough job, Its hard to loosen up and relax.  It really is good to remember to breathe....and how to do that very easy/hard task at times.  I take joy in taking a deep breath and feeling the cold air enter, and just allowing my body to let go, relax a bit, and bleed some of the stress that inevitably builds up.  It's nice to remember the little things like how delicious my Earl Grey tea is, or how pretty my Charlie Brown Christmas tree looks, or even to relish in the snow under my feet as I walk along. The Sunsets from my office window are ver...