For Annie.

It's a few days early, I know, but I fear I may not be online for the most special of days and wanted to let you know that I am thinking of you, and I miss you dearly, every single day.
So much I would like for you to know, so much to share, but mostly I wanted you to know that I care, I love you, I miss you tremendously.

There is a song I listen to that will always remind me of you...and like a silly fool, I exchange the word baby, for Annie.  Its something I used to do when we were first separated and I would be on the road to come visit you.

I still have the rocking chair I would rock you to sleep in, and that song would play, in my mind or on the radio... Its a special memory...the only gift I can now offer you. 

I wish it were not so inadequate.

Baby, I miss you so much.  I will never stop thinking of or missing you.... Its all I can offer now...

Happy Birthday, sweetheart.

 

Comments

Anonymous said…
very touching Ryan!
I hope one day you will be able to see Annie and see her pretty face.
My heart goes out to you.
((HUGS))
10 July 2010 at 21:47
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