...To Be Heard

I'm trying hard to be heard.  My frustrations and efforts are all being rebuffed and it really starts to feel like two steps forward and three steps back in this.  
  Quickly this is becoming a mess and not something worth fighting for and that realization is sad when all that seems play out is a negative response.
  I'm tired of the negative.  I have been saying this for awhile now, but I am tired of fighting, arguing, not being heard, not being given alternatives, letting my feelings get trampled at every turn in this.  
 I'm tired of you not listening. Of not trying to compromise and not hearing the anguish in my heart over all of this and the extraordinary efforts I have and continue to make for this thing.  
  None of it seems to be enough. Passively you sit and let it all fall apart as I grip the grains of sand only to feel each one slide between my clenched fist, and I know that we are losing eachother one day at a time.
  The saddest part is that you wont read this and you don't agree. To you everything is peachy and you can do no wrong, but it's a two way street.
  At the end of the day, my need to be heard is found right here. My 'sounding board' so to speak so that I can at least vent some of this out because you obviously don't want to hear anything I have to say anymore.



The truth is....If I sat you down and tried to tell you all that I just wrote out... you would simply stroke it out and ignore it and my feelings right along with it.  
  I just saved you some time, is all.

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