A Bachelors Blog

Happy Birthday, dear one.  You’re never far from my heart and thoughts. I miss you every day 

  Life is a crazy ride, I think we can all agree on that fact at some level or another.  For some it’s more plateau than peaks and valleys, for others... it’s the ‘you must be this tall to ride’ roller coaster of ups and downs and screams of delight and terror.  Or both.  At the same time.    This past year and change has taught me a lot about who and what I am as a person; likes, dislikes, who I want in my life and who can be left to drift and that’s ok.  I’ve dealt with a lot of pain of the loss of friends too soon and Cancer, with it’s ever present black claw grabbing mercilessly at any and everyone it can... it’s been overwhelming at moments.    Even now as I write this, I know what I’m doing here.   I’m skirting the big issue that I’m forced to face.  It’s a big issue amidst many big issues but for right now it has encompassed all of my spare moments of thought and energy.      I’m skirting again because I ...

A note on writing -  I’ve always enjoyed writing and seemed to have a bit of a knack for it growing up.  To this day, an empty page and a new pen still excite my imagination. The limitless possibilities just waiting to be sussed out, word by painstaking word.   I love writing but it’s exhausting.  Mentally and emotionally, it draws something out of me that, once depleted, needs a little time to regenerate and in the mean while I feel like someone who wasn’t gotten enough sleep the night before, in a low key haze.    It’s a weird thing but something so simple as writing letters on paper makes me tired. And yes, I still start all my first and toughest drafts with pen and paper before I digitize.  I’m old school that way.  There’s something cathartic about flipping through the pages filled with your scribbles/ideas/characters/plot points.      It pleases me to no end when someone reads my stuff and enjoys it, or laughs, or whatever...

It Falls Apart, in little pieces on the floor..  - The Odds   A great lyric from a classic 90s rock band. Alright! Canadian Content is now covered, as per CRTC requirements.  Ryan Zammit is winning...  I think maybe I’ll start referring to myself in the third person because that’s what the best people do. Or something.  Whatever.       Another hectic few months has come and gone, winter is winding its way down into the early swing of spring and I’m a ok with that. I’m pretty sure everyone can attest to the sense of this winter being a real grinder.      Don’t get me wrong, for all the bumps in the road, I’m surprisingly upbeat.  My Dad is working his way through the chemo in his usual Dad way; bad Dad jones, dry humour and constantly making new friends out of strangers haha. I love the guy and he’s the standard I am living by these days.  Everything else can be categorized as just details. The job, the funds, t...

Ok, this is just a test. My normal blog app was crashing and I don’t actually blog from the computer much (as my timings between posts will attest).    I found this app and we will see if it all works.  There’s plenty to blog about, changes on top of changes...  I’ll write again soon

Death -     It's a part of life that we all hate and ignore and fear and avoid. Sometimes though, you aren't given those options and it bangs loudly on your door, not going away like solicitor or religious fanatic eventually do.     I got word that a good friends dad passed away and my heart went out to him. I know loss, too well I know the pain. Family is always different, whether you are close or not, it's part of the tree of your life that has gone on. A portion of you is now reduced, whether you want it or not.    I was told that a friend I had made two years ago was given seven days to live. She passed this morning and it sucks.  She is my age, she's a strong and funny and kind hearted woman and I really wish I had more time to get to know her. I don't. I won't and that's just how it is.  No more dreams and hopes and laughs and conversations and memories.  It just... Stops.  My heart is heavy for my friends impacted b...

Happy New Year!! However that looks to you and from whatever position you happen to be reading this from, truly, I hope it finds you well and happy, or at least working towards that end.  Tonight I sit here with the dog snoring (and occasionally farting) beside me, the house quiet except for a punk version of Like A Prayer playing in the background. New year, no judging! 2016 was a tough year for a lot of people and there seems to be a pretty heavy sentiment that it just sucked! Well, yes and no. I can only speak for myself but 2015 was much harder, but don't get me wrong, last year had challenges as well but also some pretty great victories.  I failed in work and in relationships and I also succeeded in friendships and travels and experiencing new things. Ebb and flow, up and down, yin and yang.  I'm choosing to put 2016 to bed on an upswing because I feel like things are moving the way they should, and I'm happy to announce a promotion that was confirmed on Frida...