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Travelling

It's been quite some time since I last scrawled anything of meaning in here and im feeling that catholic guilt start to weigh on me. Never mind the fact that I'm getting rusty as hell by procrastinating.  As I sit here in my work van, barrelling down the highway to get home, (Im not  driving by the way) watching the countryside blur past me in the spring sunshine, im trying to allow my mind to wander a bit. To think about some of the what ifs of life and the maybes that are always lurking around the next bend.  I've failed at a few things that I really put my heart and soul into and that sucks. I've also succeeded in a few areas that im inordinately proud of myself over.  The big picture is still a wee bit blurry and out of focus but as I work on things slowly, I'm starting to feel the edges of this great big thing called my life, like a man feeling his way through a dark room.  I really miss writing and im doubling my efforts to build a habit of writing in my d...

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Resilience...

I'm writing this blog on my phone which was not how I wanted to craft this piece. Silly me, I wanted to actually use my laptop for once.  Alas, google has bought out blogger and their stupid password protection locks me out every time and for some strange reason, I simply cannot remember what my login info actually is. So there's that.    Resilience. As shown tonight, I can bounce away from the frustrations of security that is simply too secure and simply fall back on the phone 'back door' sign in method.  I prefer not to write this way but, well.. You know... Screw you, Google.   I was speaking with someone who described me as resilient and I had to stop and think about that awhile. We always look at our lives through a certain filter of time and experience and, for some, censorship. I have chosen to live my life a very specific and admittedly difficult way but it's honest and I find that there's a level of integrity there.    Most people don't k...

Last day of August...

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...and it's raining. Aside from this fairly abysmal summer weather, it's been a pretty amazing few months for me and I can only hope the same for you, gentle reader.    Ask me last year how I would envision my life just one year later and i wouldn't have even guessed that things would go the way they have, all on the positive side of the balance sheet no less.    I'm a week home from yet another amazing trip to see my family on the East Coast, this time with The Girl along for the ride, hands firmly clasped and eyes wide open.  We had ourselves an adventurous four days and learned a lot about one another that only travelling and driving for many hours together can reveal. All told, it was fantastic. I'll post a few choice pictures.    No longer a banker, and never again. My time in financials is well and truly over and to be honest and fair to myself as well as my loyal fans... Banking is a soul sucking experience that forces one to compromise on their...

Lucky

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"You've got to be lucky to be good and you've got to be good to be lucky." Some people are generally luckier than others. We all know at least one person who can throw ten dollars in a VLT machine and come out with two hundred like clockwork.  I am not one of those people. The only luck I seem to have is what I refer to as 'survivors' luck'. I can't roll dice or play cards or sit at a VLT machine and come away a winner no matter how long and hard I work at it, and I've worked on it pretty damn hard in the past.  I DO seem to be able to walk away from dangerous and catastrophic situations though. I suppose all of my luck is reserved for saving my bony ass.  From drowning, being hit by cars while biking, car wrecks, neck nearly broken (twice), nearly choking to death as a baby, and an odd assortment of other less savoury stories... I seem to survive them, and always unscathed.   So some people have all the luck and all I can say is, 'keep it, I...

Two steps forward ...

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I have Paula Abdul stuck in my head and now so do you, my fellow readers.   This will be a quick check in as I'm pretty tired and lagging in the wit department lately.  It's funny, in my mind I was all like "I'm gonna write the most highhhhhlarious and witty and enjoyable blog ever, tonight!" And I'm all like "if zombies were attacking me to eat my brains, they'd just shuffle right along."   "And I'm all like...." Yep. Pretty much wraps up my mental capabilities. Been an emotional roller coaster lately. Some crushingly  bad news really knocked the wind out of my sails for a few days last week but I got back up again.  Life happens. We roll with it. There aren't any magical cures or easy roads in life, there's just life and we deal with it.  Mostly my news has been on the up and up, if not a bit frenetic in its pace.  Let's see here... In no particular order, I have a pretty bad ass tattoo now  I've wanted this since ...

Time outs

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It's been awhile since my last post.  I know that I trend this way at times.  Fits and starts of writing then radio silence before finding the time/energy to post a slew of articles like a shotgun blast.  Rinse, and repeat.  This past while has been a bit different.  I seemed to be stuck with a bad case of the "feels" after allowing myself to fall for someone over the summer.  Woops, my mistake! Whew! Now that that's over with... Well it's not over with but I don't carry the weight of trepidation towards writing here again. The hurt fades and the memories pull back and life continues, it's the same old story on a brand new day.  I've made some positive changes in my life and slowly (hopefully) the ship is being steered into a new and enjoyable direction in my life. Let's abuse the old "new chapter" analogy here because #reasons  Yeah so I just hashtagged my own blog like a real champ.  My new co-pilot. Darth doesn't let me down!  The ...